Meditation

is difficult.  I decided that I would do an hour of meditating this morning in preparation for the vipassana retreat in a few weeks.  It’s amazing how the mind is so unruly and full of words. “Do this. Do that. You need to get this stuff done today. Is so-and-so ok? I wonder what this person is doing? I wonder what that person is doing?  I can’t wait for this to happen! Oh yeah remember to focus on your breath.  Ok ok, I’ll be quiet… (10 seconds go by) Did you know about…?” (and it goes on and on lol)  Then, if your mind ever begins to quiet down, you body will start throwing a fit! All of the sudden your leg will fall asleep, your back will start hurting, you will get a weird pain in your tummy or you will just straight up start nodding off.

I only ended up meditating for 30 minutes.  Thankfully I was restrained enough to not look at the clock the whole time.  That is always a huge, and rather destructive IMO, urge.  I’ll try again tonight.  The goal is to be able to sit twice a day for an hour each.